Edroar Progress Updates

1/16/13

     Okay gang here's the deal.  I really appreciate your support so much. My family was dealt a crushing catastrophic blow a few days before Christmas. My father in law has a very aggressive terminal illness that  blindsided us completely. He is not doing well. My family is NOT doing well. There is a lot of tears and anxiety surrounding me right now. I'm normally an anxious neurotic person and I'm  just trying to keep it together. I work at a college and was planning to start grad school at the end of this month. That will not be happening since my head is not in it right now.

     I am still writing. I'm an insanely slow writer during the best of times as we all know. I know  it sucks when you get hooked on a story and it takes the author a ridiculous amount of time to update. I understand totally if you need to flounce. I don't understand why some people need  to verbally attack me when they do so. Tonight I decided to delete the malicious reviews. I'm all for freedom of speech, but I'm not going to be a whipping post anymore.  

   With all that being said. I AM still writing. I promise you. I have not abandoned Edroar or the fandom. I adore you guys. You're my sanity. I'm going through a difficult time as I'm sure many of you can understand no one's life is without tough times. I consider the fandom an extended family so that's why I wanted to let you know what's been going on for me. If however you  feel the need to lash out at me because I haven't updated I will delete it. I  seriously don't need the added stress right now.

     I'm so sorry to disappoint you guys with the long time it's taking me to get this chapter to you. I'm at 4,288 words right now.  I'll put a small teaser here. I know it's not nearly enough. I swear I have an outline and know where this crazy tale is going. I hope you guys all had a great Holiday.  Thank you SO much for supporting me at my lowest. It seriously means so much. I can't even tell you.  

Edroar Teaser:

“So, what kind of music do you like?” I held up a hand.  “Wait don’t tell me.  I want to see if I can figure it out on my own.”

“Always so inquisitive.” He shot me a side glance before returning his eyes to the road.

 “Well, we've established you’re not a fan of Sir-Mix- A lot.” I deduced, eyeing him in deep thought.

“Hardly.” He pushed down on the gas pedal, causing my head to fall back against the seat.

My mind ran through every possible musical genre, yet none seemed to suit him, but that would be impossible. Who didn't appreciate music?

I snorted at the thought.

“Something funny?” Edward asked; his eyes set straight ahead.

“No, frightening actually.” I shivered for effect. “I can’t seem to place your musical preference and...” I trailed off, unable to finish the blasphemous thought aloud.

“And…what?”

“Never mind.” I shook my head. “Just tell me what you like. I can’t believe how difficult you are to read.”

“I’m not difficult to read at all.” He paused while taking a sharp turn with precision. “Music holds no interest to me.”

My eyes shot up to his in horror. He could not be serious. The car came to a halt as I sat there staring at him. 

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12/15/12

Hi all! I'm at 3,595 words of chapter 16 now. On the second of three scenes. I wish I could be a faster writer for you guys and for myself. All I can do is keep trying. But I can't force it on days that it's just not there. I've tried and it doesn't work. I completely understand if you lose interest in Edroar since I'm an absurdly slow writer. There are so many good authors in the fandom that can pump out quality chapters on a regular and reliable basis. Oh how I wish I was one of them...I am not. I am in no way abandoning the story or writing, but I just have to be honest. I will always strive to be better and HATE letting people down. Anyway with all that being said I have a few hours before I have to be at my aunt's for a holiday gathering and am going to spend those hours with the Lion. I'm in the middle of a scene that I can already see played out in my head. They just keep throwing me curve balls and I guess I have to get better at catching them and going with the flow. Hope all is well for all of you. This week has been full of tragedy and heartbreak. It's made me realize the fandom is an irreplaceable source of good friends and incredible support. I'm so grateful to be a part of it. I may have never met most of you, but I have a strong connection to you all..not in a creepy way. Well, maybe just a little, but I promise I won't look in your windows at night. I only do that during the day...kidding. I do it on full moons. Okay, I'll shut up and go play with the Lion.  Oh, the pic above is a gift I got my hubby for Christmas. He plays WoW like a maniac and apparently you can buy virtual pets for the game and they come with a stuffed animal counterpart. Could not resist getting him the Lion. Now I have a physical version of the Tyrant to remind me to get my butt in gear. Own worst enemy...gah! 

BABY STEPS

I've been writing a couple hundred words each night this week. I tweaked like a maniac and still don't feel the vibe is quite what I want it to be, but it's getting closer and closer. I'm so sorry for the ridiculous delay. I'll keep you posted as I go. I'm at 1,852 words right now. So I still have a ways to go before this chapter is finished. However,  I am on vacation the week of Thanksgiving, so I'm determined to get a lot of productive Lion time in. Thanks so much guys for the support. I know it's frustrating to wait so long. I really wish I didn't get so caught up on details when I write. Gaah it's really maddening.  Your kind words keep me going.  (((HUG)))

11/8/12

I SUCK!! It just took me 2 hours to write 134 words...of crap. I can see the scene in my head just like a movie, but trying to get it out in words the way I see it is such a struggle. I could smash my head against the wall right now. Maybe tomorrow it will flow more easily. It's so freaking frustrating!! 

11/6/12 - I'm off from work today and tomorrow. I have just released Edroar from his cage and am prepared to write my butt off!  Hopefully the Writing Mojo Gods are with me. I'll let you know how it goes. Thank you SO much for the support and Lion love. Just when I think you guys can't rock any harder you DO!